I don’t wanna be in California

Waiting on a day that never comes cuz

You know you know that nothing’s working out

Cuz I don’t know myself

I hate this place of shallow thrones

Where vanity is all you know

I fake a pretty picture when I’m bored at home

I wear a mask, an archetype

And play the part like it’s my life

I sell my soul so well cuz I don’t pay the price

Until I’m up all night

So alone

I don’t wanna be in California

Waiting on a day that never comes cuz

You know you know that nothing’s working out

Cuz I don’t know myself

I don’t wanna be in California

Living like I’m Hannah Montana

The two of us we both keep crashing down

Cuz I don’t even know myself

Self

Self

I used to be the president

Of my own head so confident

With dreams of gold and platinum, I was so obsessed, till everybody said

“Hollywood is dope it’s the best of both worlds

Go ahead and sleep with any guy or girl

Especially the ones you can use to get ahead

Cuz talent’s overrated and morals are dead”

I don’t wanna be in California

Waiting on a day that never comes cuz

You know you know that nothing’s working out

Cuz I don’t know myself

I don’t wanna be in California

Living like I’m Hannah Montana

The two of us we both keep crashing down

Cuz I don’t even know myself

Self

Self

I never disassociated till I got here

And started feeling all the isolation and fear

Am I good enough good enough
I ask myself when I’m so fucked up

Crawl into the bathroom and I look at my face

And throw up from the Adderall and bursts of shame

Never good enough, good enough

Don’t like myself, LA fucked me up

I don’t wanna be in California

Waiting on a day that never comes cuz

You know you know that nothing’s working out

Cuz I don’t know myself

I don’t wanna be in California

Living like I’m Hannah Montana

The two of us we both keep crashing down

Cuz I don’t even know myself

Self

Self

Cuz I don’t even know myself

Self

Self

I don’t really know myself