I'm sorry for what I said
But hey, it's in the past
I didn't think it'd come to this
I gotta apologize, and try to make up
I'm shook up, as I'm sure you are too
I didn't mean you all the pain that I caused ya boo
I know I fucked up pushin' you to the ground
But with us always screaming I just needed to pounce
I shouldn't have stopped my therapy, it helped me a lot
It helped me not to lose my temper losing a parking spot
But I stopped simply because I was feeling lazy
And lately since I stopped my world has been lookin hazy
Baby, I just wanna let you know I love you
And I wanna show you, I can be the better fuckin' man
I'm really not happy with the man I am
Give me a chance I can fuckin' improve
I'm writing this letter to try and make us up
But what I do doesn't matter, nobody gives a fuck
I might as well end it, nobody cares, fuck it
Seeing your body on the floor made me cry
Thinking what we could have had makes me cry
What we could've had was something special, James
Instead we both decided to play all these mental games
I don't forgive you at all but I at least understand
What I ended up marrying was a broken, lonely man
I remember that day when I saw you on the ground
The moment I saw you on the floor my feelings unwound
A gun and 1 bullet, I wouldn't forget it
I ain't gonna lie, I started losing my shit
The man I loved for years, laid dead on the floor
The man who I was talking with just the day before
The man who stuck by me when I was having troubles
The man who gave me a laugh when I needed a couple
Our marriage wasn't perfect, that's very apparent
But we were both looking forward to being loving parents
As I stand here at your funeral, seeing your casket open
I'll never forget the times you told me to keep hopin
You're being lowered into the earth, 6 feet deep
I can only hope right now you're looking down at me
I know you're in heaven, I'll never forget you
I can only hope that you never forget me too