I remember losing sleep almost every single night

Cause I was always waking up from choking on your lies

For hours I would trace your silhouette there in the dark

Knowing I would never know the truth of who you really are

Now I'm trying to get over you, but where do I begin

You painted yourself so picture perfect, so I dropped my guard and I let you in

I did this to myself, and I can't believe I was so dumb

How can I still feel all this pain when I'm completely numb

And now I wonder if he knows that you're just sleeping with my ghost

And that you'll disappear into thin air the moment he needs you most

Have you ever turned around to see the trail of broken hearts you leave

The poison you left in me still grows and I can't find the fucking antidote

I can't find the fucking antidote, and I can't find the antidote

Will I ever find the antidote? But now you're gone and I will never know

Now I'm trying to get over you, but tell me where do I begin

You painted yourself so picture perfect, so I dropped my guard and I let you in

And I did this to myself, I can't believe I was so blind

I thought you were my everything, but you were never really mine

Were you ever really mine

You were never really mine

You were never really mine