I feel the night by my side, Put me in for a ride

Terrifying embers burn on so soft and tender

I feel the night by my side, Put me in for a ride

The city is a savior, she'll hold you till you're braver

Take hold of me, I've lost my way

A vision of you makes it okay

Live your life, smile sometimes, you know

These past few weeks were difficult

Sitting at the keys, trynna find another melody

Trynna write another song

I'm so good at finding the right words to express what I'm feeling

And lately, I can't find the comforting words to comfort me

Just feeling the keys

I need a woman in a black dress to give me things to write about

I'm struggling, but when I get a little drink in me

It's like the words want to pour out of my heart, out of my soul

When I start feeling like this, I want to climb out of my body and roam the world

I was born in a prison and I just want to be set free

Maybe I'll finally be happy the day my life leaves my body

A white light will rise to the sky and I'll have a place among the stars

So when you see one, you better think of me

Being around me may be dull sometimes, but I promise my mind is colorful

The world is white and gray, and it's up to us whether or not it's colorful

Sitting alone at night, talking to a tree outside my window

Yeah, we have conversations sometimes

Cause I know there's no one in the world that probably has time to listen to my struggles

It's like sometimes I want to seek out help to get rid of this feeling that's been taking over me

And so far, I got rid of a bit of it

But no matter how hard I try, it still has me hostage

It still has me hostage

I feel the night by my side, Put me in for a ride

Terrifying embers burn on so soft and tender

I feel the night by my side, Put me in for a ride

The city is a savior, she'll hold you till you're braver

Take hold of me, I've lost my way

A vision of you makes it okay

When I think about the past three years, I feel ashamed

All I did was lie and play games

I'm constantly beating myself over with hurtful words

The nights I got drunk and pushed important things aside

I said I wanted to try, but it ended up controlling me

The worst part is, I never thought of the consequences it'd have

I thought I needed a drink just to be happy

Just to feel something

Just to get rid of this numb feeling stuck in me

Like a splinter that just won't come out

I had to cut my skin open just for it to budge

What do you do when you have nightmares and you can't tell which is worse

Your dream or reality

My nightmares that you left became reality

Sick to my stomach ever since you left

It's been a roller coaster

High at one point, and on the way down

I got that sick feeling that eventually hit what seemed like the lowest point in me

I wanna drink them all away, but I know that'll only make the worst for me

So I'm fighting this battle sober

And man, I just wish for it to be over

I feel the night by my side, Put me in for a ride

Terrifying embers burn on so soft and tender

I feel the night by my side, Put me in for a ride

The city is a savior, she'll hold you till you're braver

Take hold of me, I've lost my way

A vision of you makes it okay