I don't want a love like the movies
Because I'm afraid that I can't love right
So I'll keep someone who holds me while I
Dance around the kitchen with the matches
Unfinished letters hidden in my bedside
I've been changing, but old habits keep tight
I know I've stayed in the past tense for years
But the bruises and scars just won't heal right
And I'm scared to witness the autumn leaves die
I promise that I am trying
Cause I know you deserve someone better
So I'm learning to be her
I don't want to play the victim anymore
So I'm trying to bring back meaning to my name
I'm just used to being synonymous with my sadness
And the distance distorts my best intentions
Do you notice my efforts as fleeting promises
I can't read your face, could you be more honest
My eyes have turned to television screens
I'm not much of a winner, but I have big dreams
I'm trying to find a way to live with it
I don't cope well with failing
My eyes have turned to television screens
I'm not much of a winner, but I have big dreams
I'm trying to find a way to live with it
I don't cope well with failing