I still wonder if I'll feel normal

Still under this stupid storm, I don't feel good

I still love her but can't afford to

Still wonder, still want to hope that she still do

These days it's all facades in the weather

It's like I only feel alive when I'm dying inside

My friends are scarred, I'm no better

Ain't fell apart but I can't hide that I'm dying inside

Fighting with my mind, I'm always drinking and smoking to numb it

Beating my soul down to nothing

Breathing her smoke while we fuck from evening to morning to sunset

Screaming for something to run with

But nothing helps when I'm dying inside

I'm so sorry mama, I wish I could shed you a single tear, it's been so long

Pointless parties just trying to stay out my head, I've done this for years, I feel so lost

And they say hope, just give it time

Yeah I know, I swear I'm trying

But it's hard to even smile when you don't want to be alive

I'm so sorry I can't hide that I don't care

I'ts getting harder to hold on

My feels are shot with these facades in the weather

It's like I only feel alive when I'm dying inside

My friends are scarred, I'm no better

Ain't fell apart but I can't hide that I'm dying inside

Fighting with my mind, I'm always drinking and smoking to numb it

Beating my soul down to nothing

Breathing her smoke while we fuck from evening to morning to sunset

Screaming for something to run with

But nothing helps when I'm dying inside, dying inside...