Yknow I think of all the times

That I thought that you have lied

And I think of all the shit that I've tried

It's a shame all by myself

Man i swear I think it still will harm my health

Seeing all of these people tryna run away from themselves

So, I

Put my heart in something that I know I shouldn't have

And the pain that I was feeling wasn't really all that bad

Until my brain felt all of that

I should suffer, go insane

I've been thinking and drinking off all of the reasons that destiny just never came

The same reason I'm running from the pain

Is the

The same reason I keep playing these mind games

I don't understand

I mean, I swear

Can't this shit wait till the morning

The days my heartbeat fluttered around

Just when I got to hear the sound

Of the voice of an angel

Yea, the voice of an angel

But those days are gone

Yea, I mean that there's nothing to do

Accept the fate of a broken one

Don't act like a fool

Just try to get over it

They're gone for good

And then the feelings back

Always the worst timing when it attacks

Makes you think about all the things that you lack

Your money, your life, your feelings, a career

Anxiety stopping your mind from being clear

Yknow I think of all the times

That I thought that you have lied

And I think of all the shit that I've tried

It's a shame all by myself

Man i swear I think it still will harm my health

Seeing all of these people tryna run away from themselves

But let me explain something

You see

I know that you're thinking I'm mean

I know that you think it's obscene

To see

To see all these people like me

Those people like me on our knees

I remember when you would

You'd taunt and you'd tease

Hoping to get

A rise outta me

Well I got some news for ya, you see

You are no longer the person I need

I've been running around don't you see

Paying bills every week

Just to throw it all away

Like you think it was nothing

When I was down

I'll tell you, I was still feeling like jumping off of a cliff

Talking about "You just let me slip"

"I deserve more shit"

The only thing that you deserve

Is somebody calling you a dick

Man, lemme tell you something

You started of with nothing

I gave you a chance

To prove to me

That your company

Wasn't the only thing that I was wanting

I gave you the love

I gave you the trust

I never was tripping when you lit up your blunt

But at the end of the day

You threw it all away

And decided it was best to go back on your manhunt.

Oh ooo oh

I just wanted you to see that person that I could be

Oh ooo oh

I just wanted see all of my wasted anxiety (Eee)

All of that tension inside of me (Eee)

I guess that's the side that you'll never see