If shit went down, you were by my side
Our foundations were fried
Everyday on that couch we cried
Silent car rides, these moments break pride
Swallow your thoughts, freedom comes with your pension
Break Heavens vows, Karma teaches the lesson
High signs by the brethren
Boy, where your head been?
Low warnings from the Reverend
Shattered cycles might get you to Heaven
Put down your Devil or bleed for no man
All of these thoughts I wanted to mention
Push a little too far, my morals start bending
No form of self expression
Push out a little, her heart starts mending
My knees hit the sideline
Fear blinds the truth of our insides
One drop it's time to run, duck, and hide
We let it just cripple us
Watching the world from the wayside, let us face sides
Waited too long, missed calls, suppress, get high
Angels by my sides, watching me just cry
Wondering why I just got my feelings denied
Too busy following another
Too blind to see you were following me to
Stumbled and it got you confused
Didn't know that you wanted me to
Being dragged by my wrist you had my ankles
I thought she was my reason, in exchange for my halo
Always the ones with the Holiest names who sin the worst
All the drama and the trauma is for the beginners
This feeling I'm holding onto is dead
Everything was all just in my head
Every sentence left unsaid
You aren't truly who I thought you were
The pictures in my head, just a portrait
Showing me exactly what you want me to see
You aren't even who you claim to be
Staring at the bottom, picking fruits from my tree
Becoming famished thinking you will be free
Got me thinking about my life
I'm sorry that I asked you twice
Opened all the doors in my head
Let out all my ghosts and fled
A couple of tears that I shed
I have more strength then I did back then
Void in my chest still zen
Feelings that I cannot place, can't replace
Letting go of so much hate
Breathing slow and feeling great
Pull myself up out of this hole
So much time left to grow
I have to learn to forgive
Anything to get rid of this knot in my chest
I have to take a step back and let myself breathe
I have never known all the things I could have seen
Acute amounts of time left to learn
End goals, I'll always yearn
Take your time, I'll still be there
Being pushed and pulled apart
I'm letting go of my heart
Been too far, It's just the start
Being pushed and pulled apart
I'm letting go of my heart
Been too far, It's just the start