I hope

With every passing second the closest to me will defend without a second thought

And now I hope

With every hanging necklace you remember what I meant when I refused to take it off

And I hope

With every single breath, everything that I regret don't show up with a knock

Maybe, I hope

That I become a man, I see you with a new perspective cause I'm not enough

I spent my life living in a coffin

Nails embedded in my hands my prayers couldn't stop them

I justify the violence you gave by giving options

I say fuck it all and lose sight of all emotion

You say with a heavy heart "this is where you

lost it"

The first one to dive in, and the last one to resurface

While the clock ticking, your rotary phone ringing

Every component will be working on its own

Each blade of grass, I knew this wouldn't last

With each blade of glass, you cut right through my veins

Im looking at you too its always been the same

God bless your iris until you find my lady crying in the winter storm of fire

Deep breaths to get you out of bed

Every morning l recall you say my name the last of my eternal flame

Always new elevations with you

New experience with you, paid dues

I hope

With every starry night, you look up at the sky and find me dancing in the light

Baby I hope

With every blow of smoke, you still want to hold me even with my dying lungs

I breathe, I hope

You find the satisfaction, of laying down your shield and sword and entering the castle

Know I hope

I finally find peace, where paranoia doesn't take the better parts of me

One of a kind for you

Die for you

Make you feel alive for you

Try for you

Cry for you

Lie for you

Putting everything that I can to the side for you

Down for you

Proud of you

Miss my pretty lady but I know I'm not the one for you

Live for you

Strive for you

Thrive for you

Turning back the time to try again and be with you

Once again

Hide with you

Kill for you

Use this 45. for you

I know you're not coming back but I'll always hold this love for you

Who am I to judge you?

Who am I to tell you what you can or can not do?

You were always meant for more

I got to watch you grow your wings

I must admit I felt resented

I knew you were bound to leave and leave me watching in a seat

I thought it was me

See at this time I still had an ego

Didn't let me see a future without you my full potential

Pretty lady you got me thinking I'm going to die alone

Had a chance to get you back I had you on my phone

But I shouted

You flinched

I knew that it was over 'fore I got my point across

I tried to take it back but you said what I do now didn't matter

Tried to hold you there explain where I was coming from

Nearly four months later I don't think I got it

I was egotistical, self indulging, selfish

Thinking you deserved the world because I never needed something from it

Never going gonna meet another girl that loved me like you

Never gonna open my eyes

Rather be blind

I got some of these lives on me, on me

And they're never gonna leave

I miss my pretty lady

But I have to turn another leaf

Feel another heartbeat

Least I know I'm human living with my misery

Contemplating whether or not this life is really it for me

Good until November 2nd

That was really it for me

Never slept alone

For an era had a home

Now I sleep in front of stone

I hope

With every passing second, the closest to me will defend without a second thought

And now I hope

With every hanging necklace, you remember what I meant when I refused to take it off

And I hope

With every single breath, everything that I regret don't show up with a knock

Maybe, I hope

That I become a man, I see you with a new perspective cause I'm not enough