I could fix all my mistakes
Lose the secrets, keep the weight
I was faking the whole first time
Just another thin disguise
And I made a mess of an upstate town
Lied like an actress and failed like a clown
I bet my life on the wrong way out
I coulda stopped if I just slowed down but
I hit the campus and ran into South
Knees on the floor with my hands in my mouth
I could've had eight years clean by now
She can stay there till she fades
And I'm much better in this state